My Feeling

I'm hiding what I'm feeling
It's not love but it's just the thing that I'm feeling
I'm all alone with this feeling
Trying to get help but I don't know how
and who's willing to give a hand

I'm falling deeper and deeper
in this spinning darkness
It's all a blur and I'm frantically terrified
I can't breathe and it's suffocating
I can't laugh but I have to smile
I cannot having fun cos all I wanna do is cry
I'm trying to be normal but I know that I'm not
I feel so helpless in this hopeless world
I can't run, I can't hide
I might as well kill myself and end this never ending misery

A few years has gone by
and I'm still hiding what I'm feeling
I know the painful truth that it's definitely not love
It's just the thing that I have to live with

by zayty zarina