Bila Bulan Mengambang

Pabila bulan mengambang
Aku merenung ke sana
Mencari walau secalit ketenangan
Ingin ku basahkan hati ini
Ingin ku damaikan jiwa ini
Agar aku mampu senyum aman
kerana aku semakin lemas dalam derita yang menyesakkan
Aku tiada lagi daya untuk berjuang
Ruang hitam semakin mengaburi pandangan
Aku ini seorang insan yang lemah
yang masih mencari ketenangan
Apabila bulan sedang mengambang

by zayty zarina

My Feeling

I'm hiding what I'm feeling
It's not love but it's just the thing that I'm feeling
I'm all alone with this feeling
Trying to get help but I don't know how
and who's willing to give a hand

I'm falling deeper and deeper
in this spinning darkness
It's all a blur and I'm frantically terrified
I can't breathe and it's suffocating
I can't laugh but I have to smile
I cannot having fun cos all I wanna do is cry
I'm trying to be normal but I know that I'm not
I feel so helpless in this hopeless world
I can't run, I can't hide
I might as well kill myself and end this never ending misery

A few years has gone by
and I'm still hiding what I'm feeling
I know the painful truth that it's definitely not love
It's just the thing that I have to live with

by zayty zarina

Perasaan ANEH itu.......

Dulu aku xkisah pun pasal kawen....xprnah terfikir pun nak kawen dalam masa terdekat ni....ntahla, mgkin xcukup duit lg kot....atau belum sampai seru lg....apa yg aku pk juz nak keje, cari duit yg banyak, bayar balik hutang PTPTN yg xtau bila nak abis bayar & juz enjoy lif dgn friends

Tp skrg bila ramai plak member2 yg dah menamatkan zaman bujang & dara, ada jugak yg tgh otw (dah tunang), terbit rasa yg aneh jauh di sudut hati....ntahla, perasaan tu lain mcm jer.....perasaan yg meronta2 ingin melepaskan diri....perasaan yg semakin hari semakin kuat

Malam td aku main dgn anak buah yg comel, namanya Rania....baby girl sepupu aku yg pertama....sepupu aku tu muda 1 tahun dr aku....dulu aku ada rasa kehilangan bila sepupu aku tu kawen krana dia adalah sepupu yg paling rapat dgn aku.....mana2 jer mesti kitorg sentiasa brsama....kadang2 aku rasa marah sbb dia kawen & aku xkaen lg....bukan jeles tp sbb aku hilang seorg best friend

Skrg aku xda la perasaan marah tu lg....mugkin sbb aku dah lali kot.....aku pun bz jgk dgn keje....ermmm.....aku dah lari dr topik nih.....a'ways, masa aku main dgn rania malam td....aku perasan bahawa perasaan yg aneh yg ada di lubuk hati aku tu tiba2 muncul lg

Adakah ini bermakna aku teringin nak kaen jgk????mungkin, sbb aku adalah manusia biasa yg ingin mencintai & ingin juga dicintai....aku adalah wanita yg juga mahu punya anak secomel Rania....tp...entahlah.....

Hidup ini lebih complicated dr apa yg aku fikirkan.....aku hanya mampu mewarnai fantasi bahagia yg aku cipta sndiri

ENDS HERE

Near this lake
I sat by myself
Trying to forget, trying to reflect
What life has offered and what more I can give

I am feeling sad & yet feels so happy
I dont understand why I must cry
When all I want to do is smile

Birds are singing & the sun is shining
Everything looks so divine, so appealing
I look at the sky
It turns from light blue to dark yellow
And I know it is time, to say goodbye

Goodbye mother, goodbye father
My charming brother & lovely sisters, I shall not forget
To all my friends
I am sorry that my life is a misery
And it ends right here, this is the time

by zayty zarina

How to touch a girl - Jojo

I like the song...

The PurrFect Job

Pada zaman universiti...kita mesti mendambakan akan grad & dapat keja yg bergaji besar, pangkat tinggi & pakai baju2 yg cantik2.....Kalau kita bukan anak org kaya, xpayah la nak berangan utk terus keja di company besar dgn pangkat sbg pegawai...Semua adalah fantasi

Aku grad dr universiti awam tempatan dgn result yg boleh dibanggakan tp sekarang hanya menjawat jawatan sebagai Customer Service saja di salah sebuah private company di Malaysia....keje mcm nak tercabut anak tekak tp gaji, boleh la, cukup2 makan seorang....Dah la hari2 kene maki hamun dgn customer ngok yg konon2 "customer is always right"

I want a better job....a better salary & a better position but now i know the reality whereby i need to work harder & smarter to achieve the perfect job that i want...I'm looking for opportunities but i guess i'm not looking hard enough...sigh...